Maybe it's a reaction to the difficult November election and Sandy Hook. Maybe it's the stresses of this season. Maybe it's because my hubby and I are empty nesters and all I want to do is run away and have an adventure. Maybe it's all of these. Guess I feel kind of like my photo above. Ugh.
Nobody ever told me that when your children are gone from home you will want to start life over. I always thought you missed your children and pined away for them, and that you needed to find other meaningful things to do with your life (especially SAH moms). Well, I feel like I have been let out of JAIL!! The funny thing is, I never felt I was in a jail. Weird, huh?
One of my sons and his friend are here for Christmas break from college, and I'm glad to see them, but I still feel like taking off with my hubby and going on an adventure. I have a serious case of "ants in my pants", so to speak. And the feeling is very powerful at times. I didn't know I could still feel this way about something at my age. I want to go exploring, see new towns, roam the plains and do some hiking!!
So I try to step up to my responsibilities, be good, make music, and generally go through the motions of what I am supposed to be doing. But my heart is often wandering elsewhere, wondering what the future will bring.